Assalammualaikum.

Today is Thursday and would be the last day for the lecture week of Semester 2, 2019/2020. I only have a class today which is at 5PM until 6PM, Introduction to Psychology – and I am officially done.

Lol nope, I still have to sit for three final papers next year.
It was rare for me to have a quite peaceful Week 14, I mean most of us are. Week 13 and Week 14 would be those weeks where everything is going to be pushed, stressed and pressured with not only assignments (usually months due but meh, what a student if you did not procrastinate even once), quizzes, decentralized final exams (which I have one for India under the Sultans and Mughals – I sit it last Friday btw) and what more assessments we could ever think of? Heh.

Me, taking my decentralized final for ‘India under the Sultan and Mughals’ is just a whole lot different story that I could never imagined I will ever experience. I took the exam an hour late due to clash with another decentralized test that suddenly change it times – and my professor said it would be fine if I come a little bit later. I sort it out, yes.

By Katherine Ferreras

Assalammualaikum.

It is 4.27 in the morning. I sleep early last night and end up waking up at 3. I do not have anything on the schedule, at least until the end of November. It just... I was feeling quite under the weather - emotionally. Hence, the 6+ hours sleeping. It helps, it does - to some extend. I was going to study a bit, yet I end up talking to you.

I mean, why not?

Lol.

I was swept by emotions, yesterday. I would blame apart of it due to the change in my diet. You could ask my friend, I am the last person who would complain when it comes to food. I am not picky, I am that one person who would just eat everything no matter how tasteless, salty or sweet the meals are. However, as I have to exclude chicken from almost everything; I get super pissed with the existence of chicken in mine.

A day after, I caught quite severe sore-throat to the extend I could not speak. I keep on waking in the middle of the night, feeling nausea and stuffed. Allah knows how painful it was. Itchiness some more due to apparently, an allergic I started to develop (or probably noticed?) 

I skip two classes if I'm not mistaken last week because … I just want to have a proper rest. Something that you would not see me doing if I you meet me last year. Lol. I was a firm believer that we need to attend the class as long as we can walk to get there - it is a part of our responsibilities, we paid thousands to attend the classes per semester.

After almost a month and a half frantically try to juggle between my studies and societies' programmes - I finally have the time to recompose my state of mind. I mean, no offence - being busy is all fun if we managed to properly arrange our life, there are a lot of commitments that need our equal attention. Even though I may look busy with all the programmes and etc., but I would say, this is just the period where I go crazy.

When I go crazy, I go really crazy.

And then when I decided to stop, there is no turning back. Hence the reason why I no longer do any Photoshop. Heck, its been ages since the last time I open that software. #PrayForMe

Assalammualaikum.

One thing that I rarely talk either in my blog or among my friend is my love life - because I basically do not have any. I am currently not engaged in any form of relationship bond nor contract lol. I have never been in a serious relationship nor engaging with guys. I literally do not talk to male homosapiens unless I have to. And without knowing, it invites trouble which I later have to deal with in order to move forward to the path of growing

In the spirit of wanting to shed off my previous shell, plus upon my friends' suggestions - I decided to expand my circle of friends. Hence, the reason why you would see I keep on joining programmes and getting involves in society. University is the place for us to build as many connections with people. Something you might think is unnecessary but nope.

Keyword: 'schedule'

Somehow, somehow - I end up helping a friend's mom for her office collaboration program with the Oman delegates in IIUM. It was a conference, a two days conference on top of that. I was supposed to usher the presenters and VIPs to the Senate Hall, where the conference will take place.

Assalammualaikum.

If you haven't noticed, I intend to make Campus Rambles as a series of updates documenting everything that happened along the week of my semester studies. The reason I decided to write about my daily events simply because I want to reminisce all those days I struggled through the storms and thunders. To remember that I survive them, I survive those turbulences that I thought would kill me.

Yet, they didn't.

I was quite confident I can commit my time for this small project, however as Week 3 approached - I could not find a proper time to write about it. Hence, the reason why I updated my Week 3 almost two weeks after. Hehe. 

"Blessed is the man who knows his own faults better than others know them." - Ibn Hazm

Green-A-Thon Challenge 2019

I worked under the Promotion and Publication bureau. For the first time, I actually show my mediocre video editing skills as well as website making lol.I was pressured to finish them within a very short time - however, I learnt how effective it is when we have a line of higher-ups that acknowledge our struggles, and took their time to willingly guides and comforts us too. 

I had to design a website from scratch (not really hehe I used Wix lol)  within three days, in the middle of busy assignments/submissions weeks last short semester.

Assalammualaikum.

The haze is getting super bad lately. It has decided to cling to me as a continuous painful cough and a rise in temperature as the sun laying to sleep. My classes even got cancelled last Thursday as the Air Pollution Index (API) in Gombak is getting way more than 200. That left me with only two days of classes. 

I was scrolling my Facebook (Yes, I'm still using it.) to which I stumble into a post advertising on a discussion session happening this Wednesday. It was not something unusual; book discussions, open mic sessions are not peculiar in any universities I bet.

• I really like the first class in every subject. Not because most of them would be cancelled due to Add/Drop processes, rather because of the first insight given to the students about the subject in particular. How the learning process would be, the lecturer intentions for the students in regards to the subject.

I am currently in my third year, second semester - meaning, I have another one and a half year before finishing my degree, Inn Shaa Allah, in 2021. For those who did not know, this year commemorates my fifth year wrestling through tertiary education in International Islamic University Malaysia (IIUM)/ Universiti Islam Antarabangsa Malaysia (UIAM). One and a half year spent in Centre for Foundation Studies (CFSIIUM), the remaining years (and still) doing degree. Who knows I might even pursuing my Postgraduate studies here lol.

Penulis: SYAFIQ AIZAT 

Terbit: JUN 2018 

Penerbit: Buku Fixi

Mukasurat: 330 ms

Sinopsis:

Malangnya, novel ni kawan aku punya dan benda terakhir yang ada dalam senarai hidup aku adalah putus kawan :')

I used to do sport when I was in school. I played netball, 100 meters sprints, long jump and high jump (for a while) as I was bestowed with long limbs lol. I stopped completely when I was in Form 3 due to well let just say, physical constraints. In my foundation years, I started practising Silat Cekak Malaysia – until last year but I managed to graduate with a passing grade from Ujian Sijil Rendah even without Kepujian (It is freaking hard to obtain and would remain as one of my biggest regrets lol). 

However, since last year also, I started to get involved in many sports competitions and events. Not as participants, but as a crew. The main reason for me to participate as a crew is that – I was bored. Lol. Other than that, Sports Volunteering is usually a one-off-commitment. In other words, I just have to work on the day of the event. No prior commitment. I hate peningkan kepala doing paper works, meetings the higher-ups and attaching myself to certain organizations/association.

picture: @BukuFixi

Assalammualaikum.

Kampus yang ditulis oleh Syafiq Aizat ni di-release pada March 2017 tapi aku baru berkesempatan untuk baca selepas keinginan yang selama ini hanya disimpan tetiba kena rentap naik ke dasar. Ewah. So, I called my lovely fixi's enthuasiast, Puteri, to ask either she has Kampus, Entiti and Anomali lol. I got two out of three, tu pun kes dia takbukak plastik lagi. Aku dahlama takbaca novel melayu sebenarnya. Even Buku Fixi pun aku dahlama tinggal walaupun setiap kali depa release novel baru aku pun terikut sama hype (dan nakbeli but end up aku beli makanan lol).

Sejujurnya, apa itu penulisan yang bagus sangat mengelirukan, sebab masing-masing yang menilai punya taste berbeza-beza dan ada sesetenganya sehingga sangat berharap bahawa penulis perlu penuhi selesa dia seorang sahaja. Itu... agak mustahil. - Syafiq Aizat

Impression?
Aku takmenyesal baca Kampus. Sumpah!

Today is Monday, meaning it has been a week since I started my short semester. It is my first time signing up for a short semester (cause ya know I rather have 3 months holiday too). Taking a short semester was never in my plan as I figured I can finish all the required subjects within the estimated four years. I could, but it may seem I mistakenly overestimate my mental capacity of handling 21.5 credit hours per semester. I know there are people who can still score quite well even though they have 24+ credit hours per semester.

Pft. Certainly, I do not belong to the list.

What is it like to be a Third Year student?
Frankly - miserable. A lecturer once told us that one of the reasons why most the senior students in our department have deteriorating results is because of the absence of passion. Passion and patience are important elements we need in order to keep going. You may have the patience, but with passion being eliminated within yourself, things might get harder and harder over the period of time. Imagine doing an assignment just because we have to get it finished rather than doing it aside from fulfilling the requirements and feeding our inner curiosity?

At one point, we might even consider changing the course or even stop studying. Because putting an end to something that hurt us is better than continuously working on something that does not seems to give the same energy in returns.

Wow who hurt you? Lol.

Igarashi Iori is a talented radiographer who believes the “truth” is definitely captured in CT and MRI images. He and radiologist Amakasu An work at a hospital’s radiology department where they determine the causes of patients’ illnesses and injuries. (Source: jdramas.wordpress.com) 

- as cited from MyDramaList

I just wanna have a casual sembang session hehe. It has been a while since we talk, have we not? I kinda realized yesterday that I might have been to fix on writing pieces that are too (hopefully) pleasing to a certain part of myself. I happened to abandon the 'fun' and that 'I-don't-care' attitude in the process of satisfying that inner roaring turmoil. I am sorry, but I do have pride over my 'don't give a damn' characters. It helps me to get along with the world. Lol. Do you have any characteristics of your own that you are proud of having?

Obviously. 

It ticked me how I already came out with a list of things I want to get it done before the short semester started, yet I failed myself. No surprise :')

I do not spend much time on YouTube actually. But when I do, it is usually because of these few channels. Whenever there is a notification comes sliding on my phone if I do not have anything important (like really really important) I would instantaneously hit the play button. 

You see, among my family members - I would be the less likely one to fall sick. I used to believe that is due to better fighting mechanism residing in my body compared to my younger siblings. But when I get sick, I get really sick to the point that I could not even wake up and I had rather sleep all day long. It does happen once or twice in a year but that's not the point. I just rarely get caught with any diseases, especially during my study period. I would get sick at home, most of the time. Demam gedik we called it.

I guess, this semester I wear-off my luck in the health department. For someone who does not really fond of having multiple trips to the clinic, it gets to the point that I am the one volunteering to get myself treated. That, my girls, literally explained the power of pain! I am not scared of getting treatment, I just hate the hustle of having to wait. Or maybe, I just hate the idea of visiting the health institution in the first place. #NoOffenseHealthcareProviders.

I was referred to Orthopedics Specialist in HKL. Got to attend for a few physiotherapy sessions at the same hospital, specifically for ROM Strengthening because the specialist could not confirm either I hurt my muscle (which is not likely due to the position I keep getting pain), bones or the nerves. I was hoping, it just only the muscle because of the idea of getting hurt on the nerves scares the hell out of me.

It's the freaking nerves after all.

I have decided that these two words, 'stupidity' and 'ignorance,' should not be used interchangeably. I used to believe that these words hold the same weight, the same definition - regardless of anything, it just going to bring the same meaning when used in a sentence. 

Hell yeah, hell no.

The reason is that - after some serious contemplation, banging inside my brain, I came into the realization that these two are indeed contrasting in nature. Even though they have the same basis when it comes to meaning - it represents the action of not knowing something or lack of knowledge regarding something, it actually goes back to the presence of action in between that. (?) Loljoke. 

No. I am partially joking.

I used to think that 'Ignorance' is just a grand-ier word to explain stupidity. It just a word that romanticises the idea of lacking knowledge about particular things, coated in fancy gold for people to use in their everyday life. A word that synonymous in meaning - it just may not seem harsher than when people decided to use 'stupid'. To call people as 'stupid' is taboo, using the word 'ignorant' is not. Sometimes, you need a new way to call people stupid; 'Ignorant' is an option due to the degree of harshness as compared to the earlier is lower. A form of euphemism we called it in language.

People are treating words as if it is not that big deal. After all, it just a word. With the abundances of incidents that happened currently, I think there is a need to draw a fine yet a bold line in using these two words.

Remember, I told you about how it depends on their prior and post actions?

These two words refer to the act of not knowing. Yes, but I found that 'Ignorance' is the trait where a person plainly does not have any knowledge about any particular thing in the discussion. They have never been exposed to the incidents, the facts, the issue, the knowledge. There is no presence of prior knowledge before. You are just indeed a blank sheet. That is ignorance.

'Stupid' on the other hand, is when you do have prior knowledge regarding the issue - a problem that may arise is how you take that information and process it in your mind, which later will produce a stand that, again, may become your common ground. How an action can be deemed 'stupid' is depended on the projection of your understanding which is being forecast through your action. 

For instance, you do have knowledge that the right way to handle trash is to put it into its designated place, the trash bin. However, you put it on top of your friend's bunk :') My dear ladies and gentleman, that is plain stupid. 

And the world has no room for stupidity. We have enough and they are beyond control, we do not need more. 

Being ignorance is fine, it can be forgiven. There are a lot of things that can be explored in this world and not having the 'ilm about it is fine. Ignorance is bliss, katanya. But that is not right too. We do understand the significance of having knowledge about the world in order to help us making the right decisions and choices in this world. Hidup ini penuh dengan ranting ranting yang akan membawa kita kepada satu ranting yang lain. 

Life is a choice, and for us to make the right choice, the act of knowing something is demanded from us. 

Wah wah wah gitu.

#WowWeek13TapiMasihSempatUpdate

#WowHidup

Assalammualaikum.

"No need to hurry. No need to sparkle. No need to be anybody but oneself."

Assalammualaikum fellas.

When most of the bloggers posted their ‘2019 Resolutions’ or ‘Things They Have Learnt in 2018’- I’m here, weeping like a crow. I tried, writing some tsk, but it ends up as something that is not suitable for sharing purposes due to the emotional cries and a bucket full of lies I tried to find comfort with; used and wasted in 2018. On the contrary, I would be sharing all those accelerants and triggers behind all those deceptive tools I have come out to fix my soul, but some are hard to be put into practice.

1. Life is not a race.

… as you all know. 

I cannot help but agree with the fact how we are unconsciously treating life as a race when it comes to unlocking achievements. If you haven’t watch Sembang Urat Putus (SUP!) produced by Thinkers Studio, then you should. I especially love this episode where Shazwan and Jass spoke about it.

2. You might underestimate yourself when you think you might overestimate yourself.

Life lesson. After all our self is the wall forbidding us to have fun. 

3. Sometimes, it is better to stay quiet.

At one point, I develop this habit of not wanting to get into an unnecessary and useless fight(s) because I’m just so lazy to speak to people who cannot accept criticisms or opinions. The only time I voiced out my concerns and criticisms, that means your action has been too unbearably sickening, or I just care for you a lot <3 

4. Imperfection does not equal to incompetence.

I talk about this briefly in one of my previous entries. I found out that, imperfections are one of the things that make human special compared to others. Most importantly, it should not be the yardstick for us to measure the abilities of a person. This didn’t sound right but it is the closest to the meaning I intended it to be.

5. Life is an ongoing process of learning (and crying)

I cried a lot in the second half of the year due to the unbearable workforce. I had never been more impressed with the fact that I can (finally) cry that much. I think it is important for us to have the right way to release the stress to avoid burn out regardless of how bad you are working for something.

6. Work. Really. Hard.

This semester I received the chance to be in class and even work with few of the star student in the English Department. My incompetence and low-intellectual-scale had always been the big wall for me to speak up in class. I am the one who feels that way, most probably because I compared myself a lot to other people which unconsciously resulted in low-self-esteem. 

Ada masa kita hanya perlu pejam mata dan persetankan timbal balik yang sekadar kemungkinan kita akan terima. 

7. The relationship between reading and writing is directly proportional.

I have learnt that whatever you read would be reflected through your writing. That’s why when I do not spend more time reading last year – it makes me anxious. Like super anxious, I kid you not. I won’t argue on this because there are people who still doing perfectly fine without reading lol. But, I am definitely not in the list.

8. Take a closer look to uhm everything?

One of the things that I learnt from attentively observing the bright students in my class is – they work extra hard and they do reading beforehand. Of course, they would be much more ahead.

By the way, have you ever tried re-reading the books you used to love?

9. Think multiple times before you decide to be selfish.

Just because I stated it this way, it does not mean I am suggesting the opposite side either. 

10. The railway route is not always straight. (and not always super-fast)

There is no route in this, regardless of what vehicles, would only have straight path. Ironically, despite the expectations and knowledge, we still never fail to be shocked by the unexpected events. My Pace by Stray Kids helps in explaining this. 

11. You will come to love things you used to think as unacceptable.

... living in level 5 (without elevator) is bearable, for instance. 

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As much as I want to say how ‘yeay-I-learnt-a-lot-in-2018-despite-all-those-spiral-stairs-and-rock-climbing-state-of-getting-nowhere’ situations, I just cannot at first. I simply reluctant to appreciate all those things that happened in 2018 as something that I shall learn and not weep at all just because its happened. Just because every single person in the world is doing so, is taught to do so – Am I expected to oblige to the principles too? (Wow, I’m shook at how irony I sound tsk)

Yes, despite the above statement I would have to admit, still – I ought to learn new rules rebuild from all those bad things that happened in the previous year. In other words, I shall learn my lessons. Things happened for me to learn and move forward. 

Take as much time you needed to weep, but promise me - don't stop moving, even if it's mean a step backwards. 

A step backwards will help you aim better what?

Heh.