070: Five Years in IIUM

I am currently in my third year, second semester - meaning, I have another one and a half year before finishing my degree, Inn Shaa Allah, in 2021. For those who did not know, this year commemorates my fifth year wrestling through tertiary education in International Islamic University Malaysia (IIUM)/ Universiti Islam Antarabangsa Malaysia (UIAM). One and a half year spent in Centre for Foundation Studies (CFSIIUM), the remaining years (and still) doing degree. Who knows I might even pursuing my Postgraduate studies here lol.

I remember, a friend once asked where do I want to pursue my studies after SPM? To which I answered without hesitation, "UIA". My 16 years old self does not even know what course I want to pursue in. I bet most of us have experienced that confusing moment, but I know if I were to study at a local university, IIUM it is. When I was in PLKN, a friend I met told me that I should not go to IIUM as there are a lot of deviated teachings/people there. I was scared, but nothing can change the choice I have made over the years.

[review] ENTITI / Syafiq Aizat

cover cantik gila tapi aku takut huwaa
Tajuk: ENTITI 
Terbit: JUN 2018 
Penerbit: Buku Fixi
Mukasurat: 330 ms


Sebagai pelajar baru di sekolah, banyak benda baru yang dia perlu cari. Seperti kawan baru, makwe baru, sumber inspirasi baru dan gaya hidup baru.

Namun, benda baru lain pula yang dia jumpa: sebuah buku lama yang membawa dia untuk belajar ilmu-ilmu baru. Buku yang sarat dengan cara-cara memanggil hantu, menjampi, dan maklumat tentang hal mistik yang tidak pernah dia tahu.

Pada masa yang sama, dia juga telah menarik perhatian si pemerhati yang baru.

Menyedari yang dia dan orang di sekelilingnya dalam bahaya, Iskandar perlu menemukan jalan untuk menyelamatkan semua orang.

Mampukah dia menyorok daripada entiti yang dia sendiri tak nampak? (Source: Goodreads)

ENTITI memaksa aku untuk jadi seorang pembaca yang aktif. Kalau boleh, waktu baca memang aku nak pegang sebatang pensel supaya aku boleh conteng setiap muka surat. Terutamanya muka surat yang ada snippet dari 'Ensiklopedia Benda Ghaib' tu. 

Malangnya, novel ni kawan aku punya dan benda terakhir yang ada dalam senarai hidup aku adalah putus kawan :')

Case #3 | Sports Volunteering

I used to do sport when I was in school. I played netball, 100 meters sprints, long jump and high jump (for a while) as I was bestowed with long limbs lol. I stopped completely when I was in Form 3 due to well let just say, physical constraints. In my foundation years, I started practising Silat Cekak Malaysia – until last year but I managed to graduate with a passing grade from Ujian Sijil Rendah even without Kepujian (It is freaking hard to obtain and would remain as one of my biggest regrets lol). 

However, since last year also, I started to get involved in many sports competitions and events. Not as participants, but as a crew. The main reason for me to participate as a crew is that – I was bored. Lol. Other than that, Sports Volunteering is usually a one-off-commitment. In other words, I just have to work on the day of the event. No prior commitment. I hate peningkan kepala doing paper works, meetings the higher-ups and attaching myself to certain organizations/association.

[review] The Gift / Cecelia Ahern

I love battered books actually >,<
The Gift | Cecelia Ahern | August 2009 | 305 pages 


Everyday Lou Suffern battled with the clock. He always had two places to be at the same time. He always had two things to do at once. When asleep he dreamed. In between dreams, he ran through the events of the day while making plans for the next. When at home with his wife and family, his mind was always someplace else.

As Christmas draws closer, Lou starts to understand the value of time. He sees what is truly important in life yet at the same time he learns the harshest lesson of all.

This is a story about people who not unlike parcels, hide secrets. They cover themselves in layers until the right person unwraps them and discovers what’s inside. Sometimes you have to be unravelled in order to find out who you really are. For Lou Suffern, that took time. (Source: Goodreads)

This is the book that cures my reader's block. I read The Gift half-way through before I changed to KAMPUS. Habit, sometimes I prefer reading one to two books in the same period of time interchangeably. I got this novel from my university library, along with another few novels from the leisure section.

One of the reasons I chose Cecelia Ahern's novel is that because I know how magical her writings could be.

069: Have I Got Over My Awkwardness?

Photo by Balint Szajki on Unsplash


I mentioned this a lot - I am an introvert. I would rather spend most of my time alone and doing my stuff, just like most other introverts are. The thing about being an introvert is that sometimes we just did not notice how we have been shoving a lot of things inside as if our soul is made of a stocking. I keep a few close friends right beside me yet I still found trouble in expressing my worries and mishaps that happened to them. I assumed a lot and that attitude had taken a toll on me emotionally.

It all started with a snap, so soft and gentle, yet managed to cause a noticeable earthquake in my own world. I learnt that I unconsciously start shutting down the door to keep people out from coming. And it's bad. Hence, I decided to make a little change.

But I do not know what to do.  Imagine, sensing that we have to do something to stop the larger strings of problems from getting entangled but we just could not figure what are the steps to counter them. I do not know how I should deal with my growing awkwardness when it comes to meeting people. I have no idea what am I supposed to do when I have to meet people even for official purposes. I do not know how to initiate a conversation without leaving an awkward atmosphere afterwards.


Five years forward, have I got over my social-awkwardness?

[review] KAMPUS / Syafiq Aizat

picture: @BukuFixi


Kampus yang ditulis oleh Syafiq Aizat ni di-release pada March 2017 tapi aku baru berkesempatan untuk baca selepas keinginan yang selama ini hanya disimpan tetiba kena rentap naik ke dasar. Ewah. So, I called my lovely fixi's enthuasiast, Puteri, to ask either she has Kampus, Entiti and Anomali lol. I got two out of three, tu pun kes dia takbukak plastik lagi. Aku dahlama takbaca novel melayu sebenarnya. Even Buku Fixi pun aku dahlama tinggal walaupun setiap kali depa release novel baru aku pun terikut sama hype (dan nakbeli but end up aku beli makanan lol).
Sejujurnya, apa itu penulisan yang bagus sangat mengelirukan, sebab masing-masing yang menilai punya taste berbeza-beza dan ada sesetenganya sehingga sangat berharap bahawa penulis perlu penuhi selesa dia seorang sahaja. Itu... agak mustahil. - Syafiq Aizat
Aku takmenyesal baca Kampus. Sumpah!