054: working in group, an epitome

Photo by Anthony Intraversato on Unsplash

Working in a group could be a nightmare for some of us, I dare to say. When I was in my foundation studies, I keep hearing stories about how my friends had to deal with free-rider and etcetera. In university, I thought people would act much professionally considering everyone had reached an age which can be considered mature enough to think about the good or bad - for some of us, it get worse. Despite all of that 'experiences', let's call it a day. There are thing which would remained unless we decide to change that.

Dear high school leavers, not to scared you but uhm welcome to adulthood?
Where all the catastrophe are.

Lol, joke. No worries, you will have fun.

This semester, exceptionally, I have to work and coordinate a lot in group rather than individually. Not only academically speaking but also in co-curricular because this fellow here somehow is daring herself to go out of her comfort zone. I tried, well, pushing myself to meet people outside my normal bound circumstances and mingle around. It was hard at first but uhm, again, there is nothing wrong with trying.

There are few things I learnt while working in group. It just my two cents but I decided to pen this down since I have been dreading to post this entry no matter rain nor drought (Yes, I just literally translate that lol).

#1 You are going to get chances to look at someone closer. 

You have to admit this. When you spend most of the times with your group mates, you somehow would be able to look at them from different sides and perspectives. You could look at their work ethics, their personality, their characters, their response when they were pressed with tremendous pressure. If you are lucky, or observant enough, you might even able to catch a glimpse on things they have keep hidden under the rug or inside the closet.

Personally, I have few people who after I worked/mingled with this semester, my impressions on them drastically changed. Rather than condemning their attitudes, I somehow learnt the reasons for them to be acting like that.

You will have that privilege. 

#2 You will have better chemistry.

As the time goes by, as the time spent together were much longer; you learnt to coordinate better with your group members. I guess, this might suggest why we need to understand people better. In order to have better chemistry with people, you ought to learnt about them. You shall spent more time with them. You basically live in them lol.

In one of my drama performance, my lecturer commented that we are lacking in terms of chemistry. There is spark but no chemical reaction I guess. However, during our last performance (last Thursday) our chemistry seems better. Probably because we have spent almost the whole semester with each other despite the ups and down.

#3 You learnt to be more open-minded.

... because you are not always right. Lol. Sometimes, we have to be neutral when dealing with people with 'strong' personality. There's nothing wrong with it to be honest. An act of consideration would help. You do not actually want to break the momentum you have gained in the group. The trust and such, it will bring a long term effect on people. I found out that it is okay to voice out your opinion but you have to prepared yourself to be evaluated, condemned or even rejected. 

There are reasons for that. 

Besides, group work enabling us to share the missing piece in us. We learnt from people, and if it is good practise - why not adapting it in our own life style?

#4 You will be left with memories.

Undeniably. Either good or bad, you will have experiences and memories which would always stayed in the deepest part of your heart. You will bring this memories everywhere you go and you ought to stay with that. 

Because memory is one of the biggest component that makes us human.

There would be time where you were just sitting while enjoying your food and your group mates silliest jokes on the earth just came across your mind. Even if you were alone.

You will have their photos, tremendous of them, filling your memory card because they just love spoiling you with their own selfies. 

The people who you used treat as stranger would now greet you, waving their hands in big motion just to get your attention in the middle of the streets.

Those kind of things.


In conclusion, I could tattletale about all the horrible things while working in group. How a person could be such an asshole you never think would ever being encountered - a weird species and such. However, working as a group is making me realized that there are still a bunch of good things I could learnt and adapt to my own life. It just, you have to cleverly handle your life. 

If you have something you are not satisfied with, talk. 
If you cannot make it to your meeting, try to find another solution to make up your absentees.
If you have trouble, ask for help.
It's a group work after all. People would not know unless you speak up :')

What do you think? 
Until the next time, adios!

053: Love Playlist, Seventeen & Yellow


     Love Playlist, Seventeen and Yellow? What are these things have in common? There are web dramas produced by Playlist (a mobile drama broadcasting station) in Korea. However, they come with multiple subtitles, not only English.  

    I started following this web drama which is updated twice a week on their official Youtube Channel, Thursday and Saturday, since their first release - Love Playlist Season 1. Playlist also constantly updated the episodes in their official Facebook too. So, no worries if you do not have enough data to watch Youtube - you can watch it on Facebook. Maxis does that you know :'))

      They have just finished broadcasting Love Playlist Season 2 a month ago and Yellow just start premiering last Thursday. I have been dying for their content since the break. They always take a break, a month usually, before starting the new series. 

      I love the cringy-ness that sometimes creep in because of the storyline. Of course, the acting could be awkward at times - possibly because they are first timer? I don't know - most of them are models - but few of them are pretty good too! Besides, I value their story and plot. Even though it could be cliche like Love Playlist but the fact that they centralized the idea of different point of views in each episode, I am in love. For example, this one episode might be viewed from the girl perspective, the next episode - it would be the guy. Something like that. Love Playlist S1, Love Playlist S2 and Seventeen - have followed the same criteria. 

     One top of that, one of the major things that I like about Playlist Global is that - their web drama usually comes in 10 minutes period with a good conclusion/quote at the end of each episode. 

Which. Literally. Makes. Me. Dying. Secretly. Every. Single. Time. 

And I thought - why not sharing this with my fellow readers? 

Love Playlist

You may make any mistakes because you’re young.
Story evoking your sympathy but couldn’t be told.
100% Realistic sweet romance drama.

My first love. Hahahahahahaha. I honestly, really love the main theme of this drama which centered around friendship - specifically, the friendship between boy x girl - is it possible to have feeling-free friendship without unnecessary emotions and how they actually deal it in their daily life. 

I remembered how I feel during that time - almost smashed my laptop screen.

Season 2, however, is different because its actually focused more on the 'in-relationship' situation. The struggles, the jealousy, the fight, the reconciliation, the flirting - ops hahahahahahaha. I do have my favorite, excuse you the guy who came running with different shoes - Kang Yoon. 

Visit here:


When we were 17 years old,
We were all not good at having relationships.
Now we cannot go back to those days.
Our love at that time was pure and innocent!
<Seventeen>, the teenager’s love drama
that will make you feel throbbing.
I have mixed feelings when it comes to this series. I like it, but the story could be confusing at time because of constant re-telling of the story when they were in school. Well, of course, they did. A friend of mine really likes this series as she can relate to the feeling each character are struggling to face off. 

But I guess, I am still attached to Love Playlist at that moment hahahahahahahaha. I like Ji Eunwoo however he is a mess because she messed with Kim Se :')) 

Visit here:
Seventeen (Youtube)


Everybody says to live a hot and hip life
though, only youths are said from early times to love hotly! 
This is the latest series from Playlist Global and for now, the OSTs are insane! I guess, considering it is music-related drama, obviously they need to have a good sense of music too. As far as I had noticed, this drama probably is written based on songs - Coldplay's Yellow for instance. The thing is, the guy who played as Ji Eunwoo in Seventeen is the main character in this series - however even though there is great resemblance from the character in Seventeen in this one, he goes by the name Nam Ji Hoon in this one. A confusion which I want to dig more.

Later. Hahahahahahahahhaha. I am looking forward to this series :'))

Visit here:
Yellow Season 1 (Youtube)


I guess, that's all I want to say at 3.14AM in Malaysia hahahahahahaha. If you do watch it, share your opinion with me!

Kholas, adiosa!

052: Reminiscing the good times


I wish I could post entry as often as I used to because that is how I used to be. I write a lot to express my thought. My silliest thought, if I have to speak the truth. Lol. I have just finished watching Knowing Brothers EP97 (TVXQ) and its triggered me to write about something that makes me happy despite how devastating the past month have been. Reading English as a major, I never predict it would be this hard. Achievable, still.

I did a lot actually in between those time now that I try to recall everything. I still have fun but my definition of fun just went into huge tranformation hiks. Let me do this in bullet, mind me.
1.  Shakespeare Macbeth Demystified @ The Kuala Lumpur Performing Arts Centre
We are studying Macbeth by William Shakespeare for this semester in Drama Class. My lecturer had suggested us to go to this play held at KLPAC in order to let us understand better about the plot. I was excited at first because the idea of attending a play always fascinate me but the ticket sold-out quite fast. So, I decided to just pass. Besides, the ticket was pretty expensive, RM35 for student. Therefore, even though my lecturer offer another minimum 60 seats but at 8:30PM, I stand with my choice.

Lol, not until on the day of the play (27 September). Before my lecturer started the class, she called my name and another two friends of mine to meet her for awhile. I remembered I was like “What have I done? Duh.” since the lecturer is quite strict and my mind just cannot work properly tsk. Outside the class, she goes like “Okay, so I have three tickets to offer, for tonight plays. Free.”

FREE. FREE. FREE. What else do I need? I agreed instantly! She offered the tickets to us three because of something that we wrote when we first attend the class – nothing special, it just an essay about our self. Woaaaaaah! I do not recalled exactly what I have wrote, yet I clearly remember I have this intention ‘I am not going to write this in order to impress her, I will just be honest.’ Yep, I seriously did that.
THE WHOLE PLAY IS SOOOOO GOOD. Glad that I did went there. The actors and actress were so good, the background music and sound was damn good. The director in charge of the music made all the sound by himself using instruments – the thunder for example. It was lit! We had a Q&A session after the plays and the actors were so friendly indeed. We took pictures of course hahahahahahaha.

I probably gonna go for another play in mid November which will be held at my campus by one of my favourites production house in IIUM, The Xcapism – Inn Shaa Allah.

2. Green Tea Ice Cream should not taste this good.
Actually, I do not really like green tea nor ice cream. But somehow, I was mesmerized with the magical taste of this pure RM2.50 ice cream that I got from Family Mart at MidValley! I found my love finally. Should I travelled across 10++ LRT stations just to taste this goodness again?

I probably would – after I am over with my ‘puasa ais’ since I have competition coming this early November.

3. I go hang out a lot!
You know how going to Giant Supermarket could also be my source of happiness? Lol. I love wandering around in supermarket even if I do not have anything to buy. Ever since in CFS, I always go to the supermarket in front of my foundation centre to release stress. Lol.
I still did that I guess.
I also went out a few times with my cousins and I just love them a lot. Even though they are boys, they would not mind going into drugstore or any feminine-style-stores lol. #IShouldFindHusbandWithThisTrait

But they also drag me into video games stores and it was boring. Ha!

4. Orange book haul!
In the name of the need to buy novel for my novel analysis in class, I end up buying five novels (my mom does not know yet) which are:

Kenzaburo Oe – Death by Water
Harper Lee – Go Set A Watchman (bought this hardcover at BookXcess Online for only RM9.90 since it was book of the month! Super saving lol!)
Leigh Bardugo – Six Of Crows (I blame The Hundred Pages for this)
Aditi Khorana – Mirror In The Sky (I will be using this book for my novel analysis or Six Of Crows)
Paulo Coelho – The Witch of Portobello (The synopsis made me want to have this as a tool to revive me from existential crisis lol)

Reading slump is bad. I only started reading Six Of Crows, Mirror In The Sky and The Witch of Portobello – 20%? And yes, all at once. 

I should be grateful, Allah had test me yet at the same time pampered me with all of this :) Mid semester break almost comes to the end, I shall be prepared for more challenges and hurdles. 


May Allah ease everything!

051: let's talk, shall we?

Kuala Lumpur Performing Arts Centre @ KLPAC
I have been living under a rock for a few weeks. Detached and forced – by whom, ugh... myself. Desperately trying to catch up with everything that goes around me. I was devastated, yes. I was defeated, somehow, yes. I realized there are things that goes beyond your expectation even though you tried very hard until you bleed.

Everything is Allah’s plan, I understand.
Allah is the best planner, I do understand that too.

It just that, coping to a situation which you personally do not favored because of exterior factor such as settings and atmosphere – it kills. And after a period of time, I started to question the purpose of all the things I have done.

Why did I do it in the first place?
What is the purpose?
This did not make me happy – again, why?

And etcetera (because I’m good at being rhetorical – especially to myself) I mean, we tend to be extra strict to ourself compared to other people. Probably because we have that sense of ‘dude, you need to be good at this and this and this.’ I told the dearest friend of mine how I am so busy to the extend of me not getting any ‘me-time’ because I would not allow myself to do so. Ya know, perasaan yang bila kau duduk saja-saja tapi rasa bersalah sebab masa tu boleh terisi dengan sesuatu yang lebih berfaedah? Lol. I am such a drama, I know.

And my friend responded by, “Apa yang kau buat sampai orang lain ada masa untuk tengok drama apa semua dan kau tak?”

At that particular moment, I realized how I have been really harsh to myself. I have been working a lot and I did not let myself to have a rest because of things that I want to accomplish recquires me to work harder than I usually do. And bam! I’m burned.

The conclusion is – don’t wear yourself too hard :) Always do something that would make us happy and have a purpose! Having a purpose (intention, niat) would help us going further. Take care of our self better because once it goes ‘haywire’ – dang girl, everything would stop functioning and shit happens. And you will feel bad

Trust me, I have been there. Lol.
This is something I received in 2015 (farewell gift from Public Speaking Class) and every time I feel tired or I am fighting with my own stress - I would read this all over again just to gain strength.

How did you guys cope with your own inner stress?

Merdeka!Merdeka! Blogger Contest


One of the reasons, I like about being a Malaysian is that we in general are really celebrative peeps! I mean, we celebrate almost everything without actually seeing races and religions as a huge barriers. Of course, we do quarrels once in awhile. But meh - let see the bright side and you will love it.

I kinda miss the time when I was in secondary school. My school is a school that full of multiracial people. We have huge Malays popularity (lol the word) and same goes to Chinese and Indians (Orang Asli and Thai also we got meh!) Half of my class is Chinese and the rest is a mix of Malays and Indians students. I guess, mungkin tu salah satu sebab aku boleh 'masuk' kepala dengan mudah regardless people kalau aku nak :') #RightEducation.

Reminiscing the past, my chinese classmates would visit us during raya and they really like kuih raya and also duit raya lol. I remember Lydia puts two oranges/mandarins inside my drawer yet I forgot to brought it home duh during Chinese New Year. And how we visited Durkga's house during Deepavali with Baihaqi's green alphard - which actually a van (funny story lol!)

My favorite local brand at the moment would be:

This is weird. I have been thinking for the past few months that I actually had never get a new telekung for my own self ever since I was in Form 2. The last one is the one that my grandma gave me the first time I came to Kelantan.

I am 20 now and you do the math :')

I have this weird tendency of not letting go things that I have used. Period of usage? Does not matter. I am loyal like this. So loyal that I just feel something is wrong with me. The flowers on the telekung has already worn out because my so cute little devil kitten decided to 'attack' me when I was praying. #CatOwnerProblems 

I should start saving money to buy a new telekung. Merdeka! Merdeka! Sale (http://www.lazada.com.my/merdeka-sale/) will take place from 25 August to 31 August (where you can find special discounts up to 80%!). And there are a lot of things that we can actually grab during this special promotion *angkat kening double jerk* 

Having a nice well made telekung would not hurt once in awhile right? 

Plus, it has been almost 8 years! 

Telekung Siti Khadijah Klasik Faatiha (White) (One set - Telekung & Kain)

Telekung Siti Khadijah TPO (The Prayer Outfit) 4.1 (Pink)

If you are a blogger (whoops!) and you want to join the same excitements (probably your own story too about being a Malaysian) visit Lazada! :D

050: Hyping up for next new semester

I did pretty decent last semester. Decent as in I do not flunk any subjects which is wallahi  I can never be grateful enough. I was pretty upset with my own self because I am totally acting like a genuine wallflower in Introduction to Poetry class. I like the lecturer tho – she is fantastic (no argue) and she reads Kazuo Ishiguro (double fantastic!), it just me. You know, I was overwhelmed because of my limited knowledge which is ... dissapointing?

(That is the reason why you study, you clever!)

There was this one session held in class by my department about Islamization of Knowlege given by Dr. Mahmudul (our deputy dean for IRKHSS). I remembered how it excites me to read language. It was the time where I see language study in better wider spectrum. I even feels like wanting to be a journalist at that moment because, accept it – we lack of Muslims journalist. We had to rely on non-muslims journalist to report on issue surrounding the Muslim world. Well, there is nothing wrong about them writing the report but isn’t better if we are the one who did it?

me: *thinking hard about what I have wrote in the blog*

Blood, sweat and tears – the perfect metaphors to explain what it is like to survive last semester. Do better, that is the key and of course do not neglect a spark of fun too. I believe you always need to have fun in studies. Uhm, even if you don’t – just try.

Or force the fun. Lol.

For the next semester, challenge promises to come bawling in different faces. I’ll be taking seven subjects which still normal (18.5 credit hours) had to ace this one tho if I want to take Law as my minoring (in consideration).

I started exercising since last week. It is been a while since I loosen up the screw y’all (4 months holiday) and my body is in pain. I want to loose some fats, enough to make me look fit. Probably gain some muscle too, k joke. Everyone keeps telling me that I have gain weight – and yas it does. The makciks of course. The last time I weighted myself, it was 68kg. Since, I am quite on the tall side – friends told me that it is fine for my figure. But man, I was offended when I know Donghun is much more lighter than me when he is dang tall. *throws chocolate in my hand away* Plus, I might gonna start training for KWD (silat competition) which will be held at the end of the year. If I cannot endure the training, man, I probably gonna went mad (and suffers from muscle-sore).

I need to eat well too. I noticed that I can hardly refrain myself from eating too much. My too much is real too much that if I post the picture of my daily meals you would cry. A river.

I do hope that next semester (and more) would be a beautiful memory and a good starter for me.

So, Fatin;
Live healthily. Read plenty. Study better. Save money. Confront fears. Built Connections.

Be happier.

049: Would You Rather, book tag

1. Read only trilogies or stand alone?
Stand alone, because I do not like the idea of being left hanging. Yet, I enjoy reading Percy Jackson’s series by Rick Riordan, The Maze Runner series by James Dashner and To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before Trilogies by Jenny Han (did not read the last installment lagi though :p)

2. Read only female or male authors?
I wanna read both sobs this is hard but I guess, female?
This is weird, but when I first started reading English books I prefer to read pieces written by male authors and usually avoid reading from female authors until two years ago? (Duh, I know right?) I read from both gender from time to time, but male authors’ pieces seems to pique my interest more.

The reason is, I had this well uhm we could call it illusion that all female author write only chick-lit – which I do not really preferred. Again, back then lah. There is a story which makes me change my preference lol but, next time. Now, I read more from female writers than male authors, I guess?

“When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.” – Max Planck

 3. Shop at Barnes & Nobles or Amazon?
Uhm, nopes since this girl hate the idea to spend her money over shipping-fees (can buy more books) and again, waiting. I prefer going to bookstore myself because I find utopia there. Ocassionally, I would buy from MPHONLINE because of member’s discount. Hiks.

4. All books become movies or TV shows?
TV Shows, I like it if they can emphasize or work on single detail that appears on the book <3

5. Read 5 pages per day or 5 books per week?
5 pages per week. Trust me, reading is a bless and bliss for me. However, sometimes I would stop reading because I kinda dislike that feelings of ‘you-need-to-finish-reading-this’. You would not understand, I hate restrictions.  Now that I think, why does I feel like it is a restriction at the first place?

A thing to ponder before sleep, Faten.

6. Be a professional reviewer or author?
Author. #PrayforFatin

7. Only read your top 20 favourite books over and over again or always read new ones that you haven’t read before?
New ones. Eventhough I found out that by reading books over and over again could actually helps in improving my understanding and details that I might not notice – new books promises new adventure as well as knowledge.

8. Be a librarian or book seller?
Book seller. I used to be a librarian, but nah now I feel like providing a ranges of books to people in my own space. I told you before. Besides, I would have more opportunities to share my loves for book to more people.

No worry, you are all welcomed to the opening, one day.

9. Only read your favourite genre or every genre except your favourite?
Every genre. I usually had this sudden inclination to “Eh-Rasa-Nakbaca-Buku-*insert books genre*” out of nowhere. I have that in me. Lol. And, changing from genre to another once in awhile helps me to overcome my reading slumps.

10. Only read physical books or e-books?
Ebooks. I like physical books but I can fit a lot more in my device as I usually jump from one book to another real quick even before I’m halfway through it.


Thank you Rasya for tagging me! I wish I could tag some more people but ... since I do not have that much blogger ...................... friends –‘ Feel free to do this tag (as well as being my friend)

Hahahahahahahahaha, k I need to stop.
Until the next time, have a bless!

[review] Golden Time

Title: Golden Time | ゴールデンタイム
Episodes: 24
Aired: Oct 4, 2013 to Mar 28, 2014
          Due to a tragic accident, Banri Tada is struck with amnesia, dissolving the memories of his hometown and past. However, after befriending Mitsuo Yanagisawa, he decides to move on and begin a new life at law school in Tokyo. But just as he is beginning to adjust to his college life, the beautiful Kouko Kaga dramatically barges into Banri's life, and their chance meeting marks the beginning of an unforgettable year.
           After having a glimpse of college life, Banri learns that he is in a new place and a new world - a place where he can be reborn, to have new friends, fall in love, makes mistakes and grow. And as he begins to discover who he was, the path he has chosen leads him towards a blindingly bright life that he will never want to forget. [Written by MAL Rewrite] - Credit to MyAnimeList

There are times while I watched this anime I feel like throwing a punch right directly into Tada Banri’s face or spanking Kaga Kokou’s head for acting silly (read: her unusual self). Watching Golden Time evokes my emotions, ripping my heart yet tended it back. Considering for all this time, I only watched Sport Anime even if I did layan drama/sliced-of-life anime it would be real back then.

Golden Time is a good starter for me, then. I watched this anime without no prior information, the synopsis or such. I asked for a good bunch of animes from a friend of mine (with note saying #NoHeavyIntenseAnimePlease because he seems to be enjoying intense anime and I can’t handle that. Yet.) and this is one among the others.

The first episode managed to attract my attention with it’s university-life-themed, Tada Banri’s first day enrolled in a university, meeting Matsuo who soon be his closest friend and also ... sudden attack from Kaga Kokou with uhm ... roses ... on Matsuo’s face. Literally, slapping his face with the roses bouquet because she was so frustrated that her childhood friend is trying to get away from her. Lol. That girl, I told you, is so freaking persistent. And clingy.

The next thing I realized, I like her character. A lot. I found her persistence as a charm and not a nuisance. She’s so pretty by the way. I usually do not really pay much attention on such detailing however her fashion style is so good to passed by. Lol. The characters also constantly evolving, so does the plot. It’s not too slow or fast – the timeline for me is legit eventhough it’s not being mentioned clearly.

Golden Time has enough drama, angst and comedy. I swear the comedy is just so smooth that I went – did I just laugh? Lol. I like the interactions between the girls, the boys and both of the groups. I even like it more that the anime does not contain anything that is just there to display, unnecessary props I would say. For instance the photo of Banri and Linda that Banri slips between the books, the matching mirror, even the OkaMera. I guess, that is one of the reasons making me instantly pay attention to any of its detailing.

I laugh a LOOOOOOOT during this part cis

The ending?
To be honest, I don’t expect that. 
Nonetheless, it’s already satisfy me. Hiks. 

Picture taken from 1&4 | 2 | 3 

047: diameter

Diameter, kalau dicari maknanya:
Diameter (n.) – the lenght of a straight line passing through the center of a circle and connecting two point on the circumference.
- vocabulary.com
Jadi sekiranya aku meletakkan memori sebagai diameter yang menghubungkan antara titik pertama (aku yang dahulu) dan titik kedua (aku yang sekarang), legit kan?

Aku rasa aku sejenis manusia yang suka bergelumang dengan memori, boleh jadi jugak masa lalu. Dalam erti kata lain, a past-oriented person barangkali, seperti yang aku pernah belajar dalam subjek Social Studies dulu. Tak, jangan percaya; ni self-diagnosed. Aku antara manusia yang suka ingat benda-benda yang kadang-kadang pelakunya sendiri pun tak ingat. Sampai satu masa orang pun terkejut dengan apa yang ingat.

Haih, kalaulah aku punya memorization untuk ayat Quran pun semantap ini :')

Bila bercakap soal diameter, apa yang buat aku terfikir pasal benda ni sebenarnya selepas aku keluar dengan kawan-kawan baik aku sejak sekolah menengah. Lawak jap bila fikir, kawan-kawan sekolah rendah adalah kawan-kawan yang aku jumpa semula dekat universiti. Tapi kawan-kawan dari sekolah - to be precise since I moved during form 2 adalah mereka yang stay sampai sekarang. 

I can never be that glad, am I?

"Saya tengok semua orang dahlain sekarang. *** dah banyak cakap nakbandingkan dengan dulu." - A.

Boleh dikatakan, walaupun aku sendiri taktahu sama ada perubahan ini disebabkan perubahan persekitaran, masuk IPT misalnya ataupun disebabkan semua orang, pada satu titik akan membesar keluar dari sekadar ulat dalam kepompong. 

People changes. 
Reality bites.
And truth
Truth hurts.
"Kita semua dahberubah, mana ada orang kekal sama macam dulu. Kitorang nampak sama sebab kitorang taktunjuk je perubahan kitorang." - F.

Tapi kita takboleh naktahan ulat supaya selama-lamanya jadi ulat yang stay dalam kepompong. Takkiralah macam mana selamat sekalipun dia dalam kepompong tu. Ada orang yang kita terpaksa lepaskan. Dan sebagai kawan, seburuk mana pun perangai seseorang itu, seburuk mana pun layanan yang kita terpaksa hadap sementara dalam proses mereka mengenal dunia, taksalah kalau kita jadi yang akan sentiasa ada di hujung hari.

Because people constantly changes :)

Walaupun diameter akan sentiasa bertambah apabila perimeter bulatan jugak bertambah, tapi bad memories are also a part of memories - macam P'Hippie cakap dalam drama U Prince Series: The Crazy Artist.

Ye, aku layan Thai Lakorn.

Until the next time! May Allah ease everything :D

046b: Zaful, sincerely

Guess who in the cloud nine at the moment?

I placed the order on Monday (26 June – yes in amidst of drowning myself in Kuih Raya craziness guys), the payment being made on Wednesday (28 June) and I received the parcel today which is (4 July). 9 days in total. I do not expect the parcel would come anytime soon since I thought international shipping are going to take at least 2 week?

Apparently its not. And free international shipping until it is sent in front of your doorstep promised by Zaful, its true.

*click the picture to get redirected to the website*

Color Block Denim Spliced Dress
The material is surprisingly, nice. The first two upper block of the dress is made from polyester and the bottom block well, its denim – the light one. It has two pockets so I can rest my hand inside in order to look swag (read: suweeeeg).

It fits me perfectly, yet maybe I should have ordered 2XL instead because I prefer wearing something big (to ace the hip hop looks lol kidding). But I’m fine – I’m not gonna give up on you to my sister, dear new dress

I swear she would be cheering to have mine :’)

PU Leather Baby Breath Moon Quartz Watch
look at that crescent :D
You know I don’t wear watch yet this black watch strap is so comfortable. I really like the leather strap! And the rim (?) and all that glitters inside. The watch is wrapped with bubble wrap and was placed into a an envelope which also had bubble wrap inside. #HiglySecured.

Did I tell you how the face could act as an effective mirror :DD

So overall, I am satisfied. The items are in a good condition suitable with its price. The process is convenient and they actually respond to our email quite fast (working hour).

[review] This Impossible Light by Lily Myers

picture is mine :D

This Impossible Light - Lily Myers
Page: 352
PENGUIN GROUP (Penguin Young Readers Group)
Philomel Books
Poetry , Teens & YA
Pub Date 06 Jun 2017
Source: NetGalley

I had to be constantly reprimanded that good books does not have definite shape. It could be book with unattractive cover, repetitive plot or might even be a debut piece – which finally found its way through the fame walkaway.

This Impossible Light is a story told from a fifteen years old girl who had to struggle in amidst of every broken pieces that comes apart unexpectedly. Reading this piece makes me realize how right word would bring the right emotions. That numbers and detailing is not that important. You could bleed from a single word. That you could burn a heart with an unthoughtful response. (This is me being weird) Some of the word pierce through my heart, bull’s eye that it hurt so much making me stop reading it for awhile.

It hurts because it is the truth.

Ivy is a smart girl, something that she always tell herself. However, this becomes one of the reasons of everything that happened later.

This Impossible Light is a piece that show poetry could be pretty amazing and flexible, I guess? That does not sound convincing isn’t it? Certain part of This Impossible Me make me goes like ‘This is visual poetry isn’t?’ because of the used of spacing and the word assembling. Visual poetry is a type of poetry that accentuates its presence through shapes/picture, like this one below:

I enjoy this pieces more than I expect it to be. I did catch a glimpse for the first few pages after I download it. Yet, I just dump it away because I thought it is a collection of poetry T_T Don’t take me wrong, it’s not like I hate (which is a strong word by the way) poetry even though I almost failed the class, it just I don’t feel like reading one at the moment. Besides, I did quite a lot of reading in Ramadhan yet none finished except for 5 Tahun 5 Bulan (re-read). 

I would not say this is a light reading; the form are – easy to digest but the content and plot is quite heavy (for someone who enjoy reading contemporary books). Easy to digest because the choice of word is easy to comprehend. The plot, well – there’s something in the plot that pull the gravity.

And uh, sometimes. Sometimes? We just need to try reading different kind of materials to see a wider options, more diverse knowledge waiting for us to explore.

Have a nice (Raya) day ahead!

046: of Red Halter Dress and Zaful

I would be that one person who would type “Why do Almond London is called Almond London” or “The reasons behind London in Almond London cookies” because it is oddly satisfying to type that specifically long in the search engine. So, when I found out that Zaful, an online fashion store which allows me to type things such as  “red halter dress”, "robes de cocktail courtes" (which is in French by the way) or long sleeve lace dress yet still comes with a reasonable search result (nothing like a flag for red halter dress for example), I am beyond euphoric!

            I google-d to know more about Zaful. You know, the basics such as their service, the quality and such, just to get the general idea based on reviews (which is a mix of both good and bad). But then as I had always been a firm believer of ‘I would judge based on my own experience’ – I decided to give it a try since they gave me $50 to spend. My experience with Lazada (services usually claimed bad and faulty yet depends on the seller) had been good.

So, no harms trying? :’)

Scrolling the websites, going through every pieces of the clothes, footwear and even accessories makes me almost cry in agony because uhm ... its an international based online store. To be honest, I had to voice out my concern over buying from international-based webstore. Other than shipping (Zaful provides worldy shipping which gladly covered by them whenever we spend more than $30) and well, the price itself – thinking how much would it cost once converted to Malaysian Ringgit (almost 4MYR = 1 USD)

IT IS A CONCERN *closed the laptop, goes crying*
But then –

Zaful 3rd Anniversary blog giveaway

My dear followers, there are some news I would love to share with you guys. One of the biggest online fashion store “Zaful” is now celebrating their 3rd anniversary.

I'll checked out the details about this anniversary blog giveaway. TBH, It's quite awesome. The link to their blog is over here: https://zafulofficial.wordpress.com/?lkid=84658

Who doesn’t love giveaways? Go to their blog and take a look. I would be very happy if you tag my namebananafatenafter participating the giveaway event. Zaful will choose a couple of winners after the event and give out huge rewards!

Many thanks!

$100 worth of shopping is crazy! And there is a lot of things that straight goes inside my wish list from the website. Suddenly, I feel like buying a cute denim jacket (which uhm I would never use *winks*), a long bohemian dresses (could be paired up with the jacket honestly), heels that somehow looks so pretty yet I swear I would never wear since I am currently a 169cm tall girl with mostly pendek-ians :’)  

You know #UhmTheFeelingThatYouNeedToBuySomethingUn-NeededLol. Yet, among all those things I wish I could have – there are three items that is on top of my list;

1. Bowknot Stripes Shirt With Pocket - Stripe L ($18.92) (SALE) http://www.zaful.com/bowknot-stripes-shirt-with-pocket-p_288263.html?lkid=84658
            This dress kinda radiates kdrama feeling to me lol. I think I have seen the heroine from Suspicious Partner (K-Drama) wore this once :’) Who knows I probably met my own love prosecutor-turned-lawyer-boyfriend with this as a charm! Ah, yeah – this is me wanting to share a little tiny bits of luck from her lol.
Okay, joking.
But it’s cuteeeeeeeeee.

            This would be good with a slack/jeans or simply skirt. Besides, it is blue in colors. Probably one of the most valid reason for me to have it on my closet.     

It’s been ages since the last time I wore a watch around my wrist. The last time probably 4 to 5 years ago. Been keeping my wrist free from watch or even bracelet (the only jewellery I could bear to wear) and its weirdly comfortable hiks. However, since last year, I keep wanting to buy one since I feel like I need it. #UhmTheFeelingThatYouNeedToBuySomethingUn-NeededLol.

And look at those crescent-shaped needle watch! Isn’t it cute?
How I wish I could change the difference between Malaysian Ringgit and US Dollar :’)

I should work harder I guess.