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074: a reflection

By faten.banana - March 22, 2020

Assalammualaikum.

RMO Day-5 and I finally get proper rest. I was busy with submissions until RMO Day-3. RMO-Day 4 was a hectic one cause I need to get my laptop fixed. Since I'm in my uni (#TeamTakBalikKampung) and the guard would not allow the brother from outside to come to my Mahallah, I literally have to walk almost half a kilometre to send and pick it up in the evening at Gate 2. Good things, I got my laptop and a reason to buy Dominos for buka puasa ehe.

I was laying in the middle of the room today, doing nothing and it makes me realize something. Ever since I woke up in the morning, I have been dragging my time when I do certain things. I realized I would take time to wash my hair and even apply hair treatment, took my time doing skincare routine, I took the time to chew my food properly while enjoying The Flash (hehehe, I enjoy DC series a lot!) and I took my time to recite the surah slowly, immersing myself at it during my prayers.

It makes me realize that I have been rushing myself - all this while. It's like I have 20 hours per day instead of 24, unlike others. Even when it comes to Zuhur prayer, I have to rush myself though theoretically, it would only take us 5 minutes to perform the prayer because I have class at 2 which I cannot afford to be late to. It takes time to adjust - instead of praying at the mahallah, I chose to go to the centre during the lunch break because I have no class before 2.

It's happened, you know.

This RMO-thingy makes me come into a realization that the gift of time is just priceless. It also explains why there are people who can have all the time in the world but could not get their job done and those who can settle everything on the list despite being nonsensically busy. I do not know since when I started to rush things up when I can just take a chill pill. I guess, it is one of the things that makes me repress my silent-killer stress.

I seek help from uni counsellor recently because I keep repressing my stress. I attend my first counselling session on Monday and it helps me a lot in a way I never thought I can bring myself into speaking about that deepest part. Together, we figure out the root of my stress. Turns out, I cannot stop thinking, rushing and pushing myself into having to do something. I feel restless when I do not have anything to do. I feel overwhelmed when I have no control over something.

It's like a disease.

A disease that is going to get me killed.

She encouraged me to have my own self-time for self-care. A time where I can properly have a rest without having to think too much about anything.

I agree.

no, im not watching any cult video lol its TREASURE - GOING CRAZY

Today is better than yesterday as I started to appreciate this sudden 'holidays'. I draw, I paint, I write. I watch my favourite series without having to worry about my school work - at least for a few days. I can read Qur'an some more than usual, pray a little longer. Bath a littleeeeeeeeeee longer. Lol.

Life is good. Alhamdulillah.

How did you guys coping with RMO?

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073: embracing changes

By faten.banana - February 23, 2020

Photo by K I L I A N 📷

I normally dislike changes. I found doing something out of my usual plate as discomforting. I like challenges, but there are times I would rather sit down and have my regular menu, my typical song out on that stereo. A peaceful day with no worries, I reckon.

Oh, when I said 'there are times', I literally mean 95 out of 100 lol.

A few days ago, I came across a Japanese drama (that I binge-watching for a whole day) called 'I Do Not Love You Yet'. I was introduced to the idea of trying out a new or bizarre thing that we normally would not do each day is not a bad idea at all. It is one of the things that struck me the most in that drama, somehow. You would be surprised how that small changes could make your day feels different than usual :)

The character did try ordering a honey-ginger latte instead of her normal on-the-go coffee. The heroine changed her hairstyle for a day by trying out a wig lol (and she actually looks good in that). I did somehow being influenced by that idea. Lol. I changed the way I styled my shawl (and I do not normally wear a shawl #TeamBawal) when I went out alone two days ago. I even sit at the back of the bus (forced to actually), a sit that I usually avoid because I have motion sickness. Back or middle seat is the seat that I have to avoid in order to evade inconvenience.

But I turned out okay?

I never thought how these small changes could actually strike differently to my entire day. I have no expectation, really. Because, it just a small thing that I doubt people would notice. Like me trying out brighter shoes because my usual attire has been quite on the darker side of the universe these past few months. I tried donning loose shawl which I have been dreading to try (no worries still Islamic compliance lol), even though it is such a hassle when I have to take it off and took more than 15 minutes to wear it back. Not to mention the struggle of keeping it neat while not showing my double chin :'))

I like it, regardless.

Photo by Dina Nasyrova on Unsplash

At the end of the day, do whatever that makes you happy as long as it did not go against what God has set the bound for us. Changes required us to be braver than usual. Or maybe more than we ever expected. We have to be willing to give something in exchange for something, that's the unspoken rule of life. We may or may not like the outcomes, but the most important thing is that we managed to taste the different palate of the world.

The world does not always remain between coffee or orange juice, ya know?

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Case #5 | Reason to Stop Writing

By faten.banana - January 23, 2020

Heh.

I was going through my blog list, visiting all 106 blogs which I have been following since the past 8 years. Reading, leaving comments at some and removing those who have been inactive for years. At the end of the process, I was left with 68 blogs. The other 38 have been inactive; some do leave their last words, others choose to dissipate into thin air. I hope they are doing fine regardless.

I sincerely hope they are doing good.

I write a lot. I write mainly in Bahasa Melayu as my English is basically horrendous for people to read. I write in a blog where you can see me updating them almost every single day. I write short stories (because I am super bad at series-writing) which I occasionally posted at my Wattpad's account. I write in my diary. I write long reflection post whenever I am updating my private social media accounts. You see the point, I am so accustomed to writing as a medium to express my string of thoughts.

It was two years ago.

If I decided to stop writing one day, I wonder what would be the reason?

Nowadays, you can rarely see me writing. I have abandoned my Wattpad's account ever since 2018. I think the last time I updated was in January 2018, not until recently (yes, I actually post something last week). I do have a separate bujo which I use as a diary other than my daily bujo. But I only write when I have things that are too private to share with any soul. Good news, I only write three times in that last year! You can see me writing my inner thought on Twitter but then within a minute, it has been deleted. I have grown choosy as I share things in my social media. I do not want to incur unpleasant feedbacks, explicitly or implicitly. The last thing I ever want is to cause unnecessary distress. I have experienced that, and I hate it a lot.

I wonder how about the others?

I wonder what makes people turn their back from things they used to find solace into?

I wonder if by using the phrase 'turn their back' would ultimately make me guilty of accusing their action as a betrayal - unconsciously. Language analysis into practice lol.

Even as I write this, I am clueless with my writing. I have no idea how it would turn out. Would I come to a situation where I am going to abandon them at the end?

No idea.

One thing I can promise is that if I stopped writing - it is not because I have fallen out of love from it.

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How to Choose a Suitable Emcee for Your Event in Malaysia

By faten.banana - January 17, 2020

Finding a suitable emcee in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia is a key to the success of your event because they are the front-liners who will co-run your event with you. Choosing the right emcee that can fit your event is a very crucial process. You will have to consider many factors to ensure the emcee is suited enough for your event.

These are the few factors that you should take note of :

Experience and track record

You will have to make sure that your emcee has had experience in this field before. In handling an audience, the emcee will need to have a specific set of skills and hiring a novice emcee is a risk as they may not be good at handling a large number of audience. An experienced emcee knows how to keep the event running even when there are any problems and can keep the audience engaged at all times.

The number of emcee needed

Should you be considering two emcees to handle your event? The answer is yes! Two emcees can work hand in hand. For example, having two emcees with different personalities that can complement each other can handle your event better. Choosing two emcees however is a hard task as well because you will have to find the right combination and has the right chemistry on stage. Having your event in mind, be sure how you want your event to be and then decide whether or not you need more than one emcee.

The gender of your emcee

We all know that a female or male emcee can bring a very different type of environment in your event. The gender of an emcee is a determining factor since they have very different personalities and capabilities. For instance, a male emcee could be better in handling an unsettled crowd and a female emcee can be more accommodating and persuasive in her speech. You might want to consider the gender of your emcee based on the type of audience you are having in your event.

Language proficiency

The emcee needs to be a master in the language that they are speaking. If your audience are from a multiracial background, the emcee might need to be proficient in more than one language such as Malay and English. If you have a very specific target audience like Chinese people, the emcee will have to speak Mandarin fluently as the emcee is speaking their native language. So language proficiency is important to get the audience to understand what your emcee is delivering.

Multi-talented emcee

Here’s the thing, an emcee is not someone who can only speak and deliver a message. They can also come in a package with various other talents. You can always have your emcee do an extra set of performance in your event. For example, incorporating talents like singing or a standup comedy when emceeing could be an advantage as it adds a different element in your event.

So now that you know what to consider before choosing an emcee, the big question that follows is how will you find one for your event?

Colorz Event has a variety of emcees in Klang Valley that you can choose from that best emcee profile to suit your corporate event or other functions. So, fret not and get in touch with their team to find the ideal emcee to ensure the success of your event!

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