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The Gift | Cecelia Ahern | August 2009 | 305 pages 

Synopsis:

Everyday Lou Suffern battled with the clock. He always had two places to be at the same time. He always had two things to do at once. When asleep he dreamed. In between dreams, he ran through the events of the day while making plans for the next. When at home with his wife and family, his mind was always someplace else.

As Christmas draws closer, Lou starts to understand the value of time. He sees what is truly important in life yet at the same time he learns the harshest lesson of all.

This is a story about people who not unlike parcels, hide secrets. They cover themselves in layers until the right person unwraps them and discovers what’s inside. Sometimes you have to be unravelled in order to find out who you really are. For Lou Suffern, that took time. (Source: Goodreads)


This is the book that cures my reader's block. I read The Gift half-way through before I changed to KAMPUS. Habit, sometimes I prefer reading one to two books in the same period of time interchangeably. I got this novel from my university library, along with another few novels from the leisure section.

Impression?
One of the reasons I chose Cecelia Ahern's novel is that because I know how magical her writings could be.

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Assalammualaikum.

I mentioned this a lot - I am an introvert. I would rather spend most of my time alone and doing my stuff, just like most other introverts are. The thing about being an introvert is that sometimes we just did not notice how we have been shoving a lot of things inside as if our soul is made of a stocking. I keep a few close friends right beside me yet I still found trouble in expressing my worries and mishaps that happened to them. I assumed a lot and that attitude had taken a toll on me emotionally.

It all started with a snap, so soft and gentle, yet managed to cause a noticeable earthquake in my own world. I learnt that I unconsciously start shutting down the door to keep people out from coming. And it's bad. Hence, I decided to make a little change.

But I do not know what to do.  Imagine, sensing that we have to do something to stop the larger strings of problems from getting entangled but we just could not figure what are the steps to counter them. I do not know how I should deal with my growing awkwardness when it comes to meeting people. I have no idea what am I supposed to do when I have to meet people even for official purposes. I do not know how to initiate a conversation without leaving an awkward atmosphere afterwards.

Heh.

Five years forward, have I got over my social-awkwardness?