Assalammualaikum ._.
Kalau dalam Rooftop Rant, ianya bermula dengan bicara bumbung. Ironinya, aku dan dia bermula dengan bicara tangga (?) Bicara tangga yang membawa aku menyelam jauh ke dasar diri sendiri dan dia. Aneh. Depan tangga Zainab College yang bukannya dipenuhi dengan bauan semerbak melur atau apa. Longkang adalah. Hanya diiringi langit malam yang makin gelap meski awan hujan baru berarak pergi. Tangga tempat berbual yang masih basah lembab.
Dan dua manusia dari jurusan berbeza, kisah yang berbeza dan latar belakang juga berbeza.
Mungkin yang sama; the willingness to share, 'jerangkung' dan #BakalIsteriDoktor.
K, tak - last tu gurau.
Lol.
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"Aku payah nakjadi diri sendiri melainkan dengan orang yang aku betul-betul selesa." Dia pandang aku, jujur dalam setiap baris katanya dapat aku rasa.
Lalu, sengih mengena aku tarik dibibir.
"Kau nakkata aku special ah ni?" Angkat kening double jerk.
Assalammualaikum
I have an hour class at 7 in the morning just now. Now, I'm wide awake. I want to start reading on Anthropology for my next class in Tuesday, but heck let me chill for a while (more like always tho). I've been neglecting my blog for some time now. Not that nothing spectacular did not happened. More like nothing amused me. Lulz
Considering I wasn't a big fan for any active club or society (peace!) because I am so lazeeeeeeeh that I had rather spent my time in my room. Either watching dramas, study or sleeping. Mostly? Guess it. However, I managed to sign myself in Silat Cekak when I was in semester 1. Ups and downs, now I barely surviving Kelas Potong but suprisingly, I enjoy it. Minus the pain, obviously. It acts as stress reliever, lagi-lagi kalau tumbuk dengan sepenuh tenaga tahap terbayang muka manusia yang kau taksuka.
Nah, just kidding >.<
I hardly hate people anyways.
The point is, go out from your comfort zone. Try something new. Experience new things. Be persistence on it, because sometimes you will just find things to be extremely hard that you want to quit and be at ease. Seriously, you would. It's our nature to be free from any hardship. That's why you need to be persistence.
Simply, to attain rewards, there must be effort.
(tetiba semangat)
lulz, with that spirit, I went to Annual Grand Meeting for a society I'm in (not Silat tho) but it did not work out well. I get bored almost instantly and decided to walk out from the venue. Uhuks, me cannot this one since it's too noisy and go out of hand.
I'm swag.
Adios!
I thought I was opaque enough in concealing my true feelings.
I used to feels secure behind those wall which me, myself built upon.
Where, I could freely walk around.
Play around.
Breath around.
It's my guilty pleasure, in a way.
Now.
Those wall seems to be cracked open till a few able to catch a glimpse of what inside.
The restless me.
The insecure me.
The nervous me.
The... 'me'.
Now.
I do not even know how to act around those people.
But until then, since you have catch a glimpse.
Thanks for staying. Thanks for understanding.
Thanks, for comforting.
I might ran away.
Someday.
Because, truth to be told.
That's just likely,
Me.
